Had my second appointment with the psychologist today. While the first appt was more about getting to know me, this one was about preparing for EMDR Therapy. She had me choose and draw a place I felt was safe. It didn’t have to be real, it could’ve been a place made up and imagined. However,…
Month: January 2025
For the Record
I am not unhappy. I realize it probably sounds like I am, but I’m really not. I’d say I am grateful and content. I have three kids I adore, their beautiful significant others, my kitties, a bestie and a job I actually look forward to. Not to mention, I’m single and free to do whatever…
Make it Stop
I have been isolating myself now for a very long time .. but these last couple years it’s been really bad and I don’t know how to stop. I avoid talking/texting/messaging/seeing/acknowledging, almost everyone, sometimes for months at a time, sometimes more. I just push everyone away. I feel like I’m afraid of rejection and/or judgement…
My Kids
One of my favorite topics. 🙂 Although they’re grown, they’ll always be my babies … I sooo miss them being little. So much in fact that looking at a picture of when they were younger sometimes makes me cry. I swear, it feels like I just woke up one day and realized, holy shit, they’re…
One of those Days
Ya know how I’ve mentioned previously that all the drinking and drugs I’ve done it the past, got so it just wasn’t enough? Well, that’s how I feel today. I’ve smoked a lot of weed today, vaping in between and have eaten 3 gummies and yet, I’m just not feeling the way I want to…