One of my favorite topics. 🙂 Although they’re grown, they’ll always be my babies … I sooo miss them being little. So much in fact that looking at a picture of when they were younger sometimes makes me cry. I swear, it feels like I just woke up one day and realized, holy shit, they’re now adults.
A message for my kids:
I want you to know that I am sorry for not always being the best mom I should’ve been, as I dealt with my demons the only way I knew how. I’ve a lot of regret and honestly wish I could just do it all over again. I still feel like I’m not a very good mother, but I am trying to be better. I do feel like a lot of my bad choices affected you all negatively and worry that some things may continue to haunt or affect you long term. 🙁 I am sorry for all the drugs and booze use and for allowing certain people to treat me poorly. I am sorry for yelling when I should’ve whispered and whispering when I should’ve spoke up and stood my ground.
I want you to know that my love for you is unconditional. Each of you are very unique, kind, loving individuals and I am so very proud and thankful to call you mine. You’re going to face challenges, make mistakes, and suffer loss along your journey of life, but know that as long as I’m here, you always have a safe place to go for love, comfort and acceptance. Always remember, you can come to me for anything, without judgement.
Never be afraid of stumbling, taking risks or experiencing new things, even when it feels scary. Chase your dreams, make them happen and be true to yourself. Believe in yourself, stay committed and embrace every obstacle as you will grow and learn.
There is so much more I wanna say, but I’m finding it difficult to put all my thoughts into words. Just know that you are my world and I wish you all the happiness, love and opportunity, life has to offer. I love you forever and always, more than words could ever describe.
Love Mom ♥♥♥