Had my first appointment today at mental health with a new psychologist. It’s been 3-4 years since I’ve talked with one. I do talk to my psychiatrist some, as he calls every 2-4 weeks depending on how I’m doing, but it just isn’t the same. I think a psychiatrist is mostly to diagnose and handle medications? I don’t know … but in any event, they’re all great doctors, I’m lucky.
My first appointment was really about getting to know me. We’ve decided to tackle the trauma first, not sure what that will entail, but I’ll let ya know. I really hate talking and my anxiety is so visibly bad when I go out, its embarrassing. 🙁 I’ll be going every 2 weeks. She suggested weekly for now, but I have to pay for transportation so it was a no for me.
I’m often afraid of talking because I don’t want to say the wrong thing and have her think I should be in a psych ward. Seriously! I don’t think about the trauma, it just haunts me via flashbacks and nightmares. It doesn’t leave me alone. 🙁